[XVIII]

Jun Ran felt pain.

When it hurts, his brother always stays by his side, helping him to adjust and feeding him the antidote. Later, when his brother was gone, he was alone, and when he was awake, he ate a little and actually survived a few years alone.

When a person did not feel much sadness, and then met Gu Xiran, everything is different.

The actual fact is that you can find a lot of people who have been in the business for a long time, and they're not going to be able to get a lot of money. The place with Gu Xiran is gradually considered as home.

It's not his home after all.

Gu Xiran didn't want him, let him go very casually, and sneakily touched his lips after thinking he had fallen asleep, making him almost think he was valued.

Then he was rightfully, disappointed.

He did not blame Gu Xiran, just a little sad, the pain came when he did not purposely suppress it. Anyway, it's already sad, and it doesn't matter if it hurts some more. But when he saw that person appear at the bedroom door, he still couldn't help but ask for help, and it seemed better if this person was around.

No appetite, unwilling to talk, groggy.

He was very unproductive and began to think of his senior brother, and then became even more upset.

Gu Xiran broke the flowers he raised, Gu Xiran did not want him, Gu Xiran's voice was good, always called his name with a gentle voice; Gu Xiran always smelled of smoke, faint; Gu Xiran always showed a sad expression when he thought no one noticed him, making people want to rub his head and then a hug; Gu Xiran looked at him with eyes almost painful, always indulgent and intolerant.

Gu Xiran is so good to him, like spoiling an easily frightened and at the same time difficult-to-raise child, even his smile compensated for their own unknown meticulous tenderness. More often than not too nervous, forehead fever when this person is always by his side to accompany him, looking at his eyes almost overflowing with pain.

Obviously all so good to him.

But still want to leave.

Then why do you want to provoke him in the first place?

Jun Ran is puzzled.

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The world will continue to function without anyone. The world is collapsing inside you blackened and crumbling in the eyes of outsiders is that face, nothing special.

The actual fact is that you can find a lot of people who are not able to get a good deal on a lot of things. The fans on the official website of Jun Ran's posting support group are still selling corruption and rolling for bags every day, without a new photo of the sneak peek.

The first day he reassured himself in the car, the road did not matter, may have gone home, or to Hu Yu there.

The next day he did not sleep and Hu Yulan battle-axe soldier three ways. Jun Ran could not bring too much cash on his body, Hu Yu asked his friends to find the train station, bus station, airport, and even several bus companies in the same city, Lan Yue tried a few friends in the circle who were still close to Jun Ran, and he asked the security guards of some sex places. Nothing was found.

On the third day Hu Yu finally reported to the company to prepare for the police, this thing has to cover up to let the media write.

Then waited four days.

The whole seven days, enough to happen a lot of things that dare not imagine. A seriously ill person does not eat or drink in the snow, seven days is enough to make his body cold through.

Gu Xiran began to pay attention to social and legal programs and look calm and gentle.

It was his fault.

Jun Ran body has always been bad, you can even say very poor. The middle of the night always fever, pale lips dry and cracked, he was a bad appetite, not to taste the dishes he did not touch. Sometimes he came home in the morning to open the refrigerator, which prepared the dishes yesterday and how to set today, basically did not move a few chopsticks.

At that time, Jun Ran mostly wore a robe and curled up on the tatami mats, barefoot, without covering anything on his body. The TV is still the martial arts drama he bought back, probably been broadcast all night, a pair of pale blue eyes so dazed looking at him, separated by a layer of just woke up after the watery light.

He immediately even lesson mood is no longer, straight walks over to open the refrigerator, and then turns to him to put on the woolen blanket, grab the ankle set socks, and pour a good warm white open to him, everything properly after turning to the kitchen to do breakfast.

After the arrival of Jun Ran his evening shift can be pushed, and the whole person unknowingly rules a lot. After Jun Ran became an artist, listen to Lan Yue said that he basically did not touch the box lunch on the set, only hungry to pick up a few bites.

Gu Xiran where can't bear to let him starve when filming, early in the morning the three meals a day are ready, put in the insulation box let Jun Ran take away.

He took care of him, but in the end, he tossed him into that shape.

The blood choked in the throat, the palm of the hand full of fingertips across the quilt stabbed out bruises, the eyes gray, without a bit of the usual luster, whispered that he hurt, the voice almost to cry out.

For the first time in his life, Gu Xiran knew what it meant to have a heart like a knife.

Then never said another word.

Jun Ran is gone.

May never hear him speak again.

The tatami that Jun Ran usually loves to lie on still has its smell, and a very light taste, similar to Chinese medicine, even with a little sweetness. He knew that the smell would dissipate in a few days as if the person who suddenly appeared had never existed at all.

Jun Ran never took the initiative to tell him that he was sick, and was bullied by the aggression of a word also did not say, Gu Xiran remembered that he said very little, most of the time silent and gentle, good like waiting for the master of the house cat.

Once a cat is desperate for its master, it would rather die in a dirty, dark alley than be found by its master.

Even the bones could not be found.

He did not want to see him again, so sick that he could not eat and was weak, but actually had the strength to escape in his absence.

Jun Ran is determined to die outside!