{Alex's POV}

I woke up in a bed. My head was ringing and I hadn't shifted back. I could hear Ben and blain whispering in the far corner. I tried getting up but pain coursed through my body and I fell back down whimpering.

"Alex" Ben said coming to my side. I just whined and hid in the sheets. I was embarrassed, confused and hurt.

"Alex let me take a look at you. We can smell blood but I can't see it" blain said coming to stand on my other side. When he raised a hand to touch me I growled at him.

"Alex " Ben said pulling his mate away. I whined low in my throat and laid back down. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to ran far ways and never come back. I hated my mate.

{Cole's POV}

I was trashing in the back of my mind. No one knows but it has been years since my wolf, hunter took control of my body. Ever since I failed to save my little sister for those rogues. He's been pushing every one to get them to work harder, get stronger. It would've been fine if he showed kindness but he never did. He hurt others... He hurt our mate.

I always thought with my mate at my side I'd be able to fight back control from hunter. But our mate hates me not after what he had done... After what we had done. The cries for help, the pleas, the tears they didn't make hunter flinch he marked and raped him.

I claimed him~ hunter spoke

"You made him bleed. You forced him under us. You forced everything. He hates us" I shouted at my wolf.

He's week~ hunter grunted.

I -my body- was standing in front of the mirror and hunters alpha red eyes shone. I hated how I looked.

"Give me back control" I growled

No, your week. You can't be in charge ~ he replied. My own wolf was challenging me.

"Hunter give me control. I will kill us if you don't " I threatened

You won't. You never will. You're too scared to die~ hunter growled

"I was because I needed to find my mate but after last night I don't care give me control or I'll kill us" i growled back. A saw as fear clouded our eyes.

{Alex's POV}

It had been a week and I had refused to shift back. My parents had been called that night and told about my situation. They came to see me and tried to talk to me through the mind link but I had blocked everyone out.

I was just dead in the inside all that hope of finding my mate was what kept me living. It was what had made me get up in the morning. After what happened every day I hoped I die in my sleep and every morning I cursed at my existence.

Thankfully Cole hadn't come to see me in the week I spent at the infirmary. On the other hand my parents and Ben were beside me every day.

I saw the look, the pitty in there eyes. I was sure blain had told them about the bite on my neck. Thankfully the sent had worn off by the time I got to the infirmary so they still didn't know who gave me the bite and I was glad.

I had tried talking to max, my wolf but he was more hurt that me. He was awfully quiet almost like he wasn't there any more. That scared me I couldn't lose max.

{Coles pov}

After my talk with hunter he had agreed to give me some control but he never said when. I could feel the pain my mate was in. I had heard the pack talking that he had refused to shift back. The elders were worried that he was going rogue for some reason.

I wanted to scream that I had cause it. That it was all my fault but I couldn't hunter wouldn't let me.  A week after that night I headed to the infirmary a few hours after dusk. I had gotten back after a good run and hunter was relaxed.

When the infirmary was in earshot I heard whimpers and the sent of fear clouded my senses. He knew I was coming and my mate was terrified. Hunter growled in annoyance but I walked in.

My beautiful mate was under the bed with his had and Ben trying to coax him out while his mom stood at the door with teary eyes.

"Whats going on? " hunter asked

"Alpha" his mom said surprised and then bared there necks in submission.

"His hurt and won't come out from under the bed " Ben explained.

"Leave" hunter and I growled at the same time.

"But alpha... " his mom started

"I said LEAVE" hunter growled a bit louder and I heard a pained whine from under the bed.  They left slowly looking back at the pup under the bed. Finally it was me and him.

They left. They left me with him, with this monster. Given they didn't know what he had done but they still left. I couldn't stop my body from shacking or max from whining. I wanted to run but I couldn't make my body move from under the bed. I had gotten under when I sensed him near.

"Alex " he called his voice was firm but he wasn't using his alpha voice on me.

Yet~ max supplied

I heard a sigh and shifting before I saw him duck under the bed. I whined and moved further back.

His eyes were still red but I saw something in them. Something that I couldn't place.

So sat down on the floor leaning back on the bed. I could see his lower back and nothing more. What was he thinking... I didn't know. And that scared me.

{Cole's POV}

"Give me control" I asked hunter

No~ he growled

"He's scared give me control " I growled back

No~ he growled even louder.

"Talk to him then " I pleaded knowing I was losing that battle

And say what? ~he asked back

"Hunter please" I pleaded

And just then I felt him move to the back of my mind giving me a bit of the control he had taken away from me.

"Do you remember my big sister? " I asked I didn't hear a reply so I just went on

"Every one adored her. She was going to be alpha. It was in he blood. I loved her you know. How could I not. She was just so lovable. But I failed her. I couldn't be there for her. I couldn't save her.

She came back wounded after the rogues attacked. She wasn't going to make it. I knew I should've gone with her. I should've... I could have saved her. But she said it was too dangerous. She said I would get hurt. She got hurt.

She made me kill her. Said there had to be an alpha. Said I was the next in line. She said it was in my blood. She believed in me. She was the only one.

When I killed her the power of becoming alpha killed me. The wolf I have now was hers. She was the only one who could control him.

What i did... Last week. How everything happened.... Im sorry. I know you'll never forgive me. You'll never mate with me. Im not even sure why you haven't rejected me yet. I want you to. Alex I need you to reject me. That's all I ask. Please" I soon as I finished saying that hunter made me shift and he ran into the forest.