"What's wrong?" William held Sean's face with his eyes full of inquiry: "You are weird all this while."

Sean shook his head. The thin callus on William's jaws of palm chafed his cheek.

"Blame me for neglecting you? Have a tantrum?" William understated it as if he was coaxing a child, with even some playful smile in his tone: "I'm back now."

Sean raised his eyes to look at William. His eyes were too complicated, and after a flash of lightning moment, he dropped his eyes again. Sean's eyelashes were thick and long, lying on his eyes meekly and making him look innocent and clever. As if...... The cold sharp disappointment in his eyes at that moment was just William's illusion.

Sean was always gentle and soft. But this time, even if he just drooped his eyes quietly, it showed his extreme cold in that moment, which was fleeting but stinging.

William suddenly remembered the call Sean made in France that afternoon. He was not sure whether he had heard Elton's sound, and he could actually make a perfect explanation. However, Sean did not even ask about it, so he could not reveal the truth with a poor lie then. That day, he got mad at Elton after he hung up the phone. He hated a toy to harbour the intention to become a real lover. He didn't worthy of it. What's more, Elton should have replied defiantly then. William then gave him a slap in the face and a ticket home. After Elton left, he really just focused on work then.

William could guess that Sean was suspicious of him, but he did not expect it so serious.

"Honey, I was wrong." William held Sean's face to kiss his brows and eyes and his cheek gently: "It's my fault to snub you. Let’s have a vacation on New Year's day. Wherever you want to go......"

Sean did not make a sound, bearing his kiss meekly. His long eyelashes fluttered like butterfly wings.

William's heart softened, the guilt surged up which he hadn't had for a long time, and his movements turned even more gentle: "Sean......I love you most. Don't ignore me......"

Sean started to shed tears suddenly, and he failed to stop them even if he had closed his eyes. The tears trickled along the corner of his eyes to the temples. He said: "William Jiang...... I don't miss you."

"It's okay, but I miss you."

Maybe that was all. Sean was picked up by William in his arms and then pressed by him on the bed of the bedroom. He really missed William, and his heart even ached severely when missing him. But he was stubborn and was reluctant to admit it. However, William could express his deep missing in a affectionate tone after a great journey with another boy accompanying him all the time.

Indeed, good acting had nothing to do with feelings. William could fathom Sean's duplicity at a glance, while Sean could not tear himself free from the gentle trap William set for him.

"Turn off the light, ok?" Sean quivered gently. The kisses on his neck were quite exciting.

"Good boy, let me see you." William bit his chin and smiled gently: "We've been together for such a long time. Why still so shy?"

Sean breathed unstably. He was just afraid that William would see the cyanotic pinholes and marks on his arms. Sean said in a hoarse voice:"Turn...... Turn off the light." It sounded aggrieved and helpless, as if he was going to cry.

William had to do what he wanted, taking possession of his body in pitch darkness.

"Sean......" William moved fast, holing Sean in his arms completely with strong possessiveness. Sean sat on Gene’s legs, bearing his unprecedentedly deep movements. He put his jaw on William's shoulder, emitting some gentle whimpers and entreaties in spite himself.

"William...... William Jiang......" Sean couldn'e help crying when he was kneeling down and pressed under William: "Slow...... Slow down please...... Don't......Uh......"

"Call me what?" William moved faster, holding his waist which was thinner than in his memory. Sean couldn't even emit a complete cry.

"Jiang......Jiang......"

"Know you were wrong?"

Sean was muddled, shaking his head in confusion: "No...... I don't know......"

William lay prone on Sean's naked back, saying in a hoarse and gentle voice: "Do you miss me?"

Sean sobbed: "Yeah...... I miss you so much......"

William suddenly felt relieved and felt somewhat cheerful. He smiled and kissed Sean's ear lobe, becoming much gentler: "Good boy...... I miss you too......"

Sean felt cold suddenly when hearing it. What remained only was a little disappointment and a little pain.

I loved you, but you couldn't treat me like a fool......

Sean lay prone on the bed after the sex. William grabbed him over and let him lie prone on his chest. They always did so in the first few years. At that time, they couldn't even afford the heating costs during the winter time. Sean was afraid of cold, so William held him tightly in his arms under the quilt.

From the beginning to this time, he couldn't bear Sean living a rough life...... William could not fall asleep, touching Sean's hair sometimes in the darkness. Why he should have had the heart to leave him alone at home and go out to make merry? He thought he might be possessed, or he just felt that the man he really cared about was different from the ones he just flirted with.