Sean was not willing to get hung up on it again. All his strength had been exhausted. Both his body and mind were nibbled away by the whopper, which had lasted for 14 years.

Sean had lain down when William finished his shower. William cuddled him from behind, this just felt surprised that the man in his arms was even thinner than he looked thin. Some feelings assaulted his heart: "How much weight have you lost?"

"I eat less cause I have no appetite." Sean responded lightly. A stretch of bleak barrenness occupied his eyes and brows.

William did not see his expression. He kissed him from the shoulder to the back, reeking of flirting.

"I'm too tired to have sex." Sean turned sideways and pushed him away gently.

Actually, William had already got gratified in sex with his toy boys outside, but Sean's refusal still made him uncomfortable. In his eyes, Sean was always docile and devoted to him. So his color changed: "Don't you want me these days?"

Sean lay down with the back to him and turned off the lamp: "I just have a cold and feel a bit sick. Don't be too wayward. Sleep early."

William was somewhat depressed. He had an intuition that Sean kept something from him, and something serious. But Sean was always restrained and kept people guessing. Moreover, William was too guilty to ask him, as he had been having fun for so long before going home. So he turned his back and was also going to sleep.

Sean opened his eyes in the pitch darkness. His head was still hurting, and his insomnia had lasted for almost half a month. He had thought it would be a liitle better with William on his side. However, he felt worse.

Sean had remembered what his mother said to him. " How two men's love can last, without legal protection, without the blessings of family and without even a child as a tie between you. How long can you insist with only love? He can find a better replacement in someone else as for the point which he loved you for. When you begin to expect your partner to be nostalgic for your bygone love, your relationship then comes to the end."

But he still can't bear to leave him...... Sean turned his back gently. William had good sleep quality. He could fall asleep as soon as he touched the pillow. Sean clasped his waist to him, and whispered: "Less than a year... I don't care how you have fun outside. Just don't let me see it, and I will paly possum......"

William held Sean tightly into his arms like conditioned reflex. His face rubbed Sean's soft hair with satisfaction, and mumbled: " Sean......"

Sean's tears trickled down his temples and soon disappeared. He was willing to stay for this tenderness, even it was just a dream.

Sean was the one being chased at the beginning, and also the one keeping giving for so many years. After their career was off to a good start, William didn't want him to be in the public eye anymore. Sean acquiesced to it and started to learn to do housework and cook to take care of William. Even his equity was merged with William's. But he never expected that he would lose both his lover and wealth one day.

Sean was even not as rich as William's toy boys. Treating a disease cost much money. His refusion to get treated was not only because he was fearful, but also because he did not want to expose his distress to others.

"Don't be so cruel to me......I never get really mad at you...... If you treat me like this again, I'll never let you find me......"

Sean felf somewhat ridiculous inexplicably. If he hadn't been so desperate to be with William at the beginning , would his life be completely different at this time? He might have a happy family, his own friends, and a lover who was truely worth spending a lifetime with. What's more, they could accept the blessings of others. He could live a peaceful and complete life, just like the mortal others.