I sat on the sofa, and in front of me, on the coffee table, there was a hospital ultrasound report. I wanted to smoke, but when I saw this report, I put the cigarette down.

I'm pregnant, and the child is Shen Jialin's.

Shen Jialin is my comrade-in-arms and also my love rival.

Two months ago, Shen Jialin and I both retired from the Northwest Snow Wolf Special Forces Brigade. On the eve of our retirement, I secretly asked out Dr. Xie Xinyuan, whom I had been secretly in love with for five years, to have a drink, intending to confess my feelings while intoxicated. As expected, Xie Xinyuan also made plans to meet up with Shen Jialin.

I understand Shen Jialin's thoughts, just as he understands mine. We engage in a subtle battle, challenging each other, to see who can win Xie Xinyuan's heart first.

Ke Xie Xinyuan doesn't seem to have this concern. We don't know if he's aware of our intentions, but every time one of us asks him out, he would bring along another person. So, over the years, we've had countless outings with three people. It feels awkward when one person is missing later on. It's truly fucking strange.

This time, Xie Xinyuan was still the same. When I asked him out, he would go out with Shen Jialin instead. I was already mentally prepared, so I didn't feel disappointed.

Just to clarify, this is the translation of the Chinese novel paragraph you provided: "However, expressing my feelings is something I must do, regardless of the outcome. It's like giving myself an account of my military career."

The three of us were just like usual, taking turns to drink from bottle to bottle. Xie Xinyuan had a good alcohol tolerance, not turning red in the face or panting even after five or six bottles. It was me and Shen Jialin who, perhaps due to being close to the end of our service, felt a bit sentimental. We got drunk after only a few bottles. Seeing Shen Jialin so intoxicated that he could hardly keep his eyes open, I pointed at him and laughed, scolding, "Such a coward!"

After I finished scolding, I suddenly remembered that I still had unfinished business and didn't care that Shen Jialin was still there. I grabbed Xie Xinyuan's hand and said, "Xinyuan, I like you. I've liked you since I joined the team. I know you're straight, but I'm about to leave Xuelang. I don't mean anything else, I just want you to know that I like you."

After saying that, I started to feel drowsy. The image of Xie Xinyuan in front of me became increasingly blurry. Before falling asleep, I heard him say, "Qiao Yu, I'm sorry. Both of you are my brothers...."

Oh, so Shen Jialin never had a chance either, then I can rest assured. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night, awakened by the urge to pee. I felt like I was still drunk because I was dizzy, too dizzy to see clearly who was lying beside me. All I knew was that it was someone I was very familiar with, someone whose body and scent were familiar to me. I reached for my head and thought for a moment, realizing it must be Xie Xinyuan, the person I liked. Happiness surged through my heart.

I snuggled up to his side and planted a kiss on his slightly rough cheek. Mm, it felt good. Just as I wanted to give him another kiss, I decided against it and realized that I should relieve myself before my bladder exploded. So, I got off the bed and staggered my way to the bathroom.

When I came back, the person on the bed had changed from lying down to lying on their stomach. Squinting my eyes, I could vaguely see that this person had a really perky ass. Tsk, tsk, it's indeed Xie Xinyuan, the one I like. Even their ass looks better than others'.

I was feeling a bit boiling. Without looking, I knew that I was already aroused down there. Although I'm not a beast, how many men aren't a bit beastly, especially when they're drunk?

I think I should restrain myself, at least not to appear so eager and shamelessly take off my clothes. But the body always acts faster than the mind, and I am also very distressed.

I stripped off all my clothes and, with utmost effort, crawled onto Xie Xinyuan's body, embracing him and kissing his neck and shoulder. My hands slipped beneath his clothes, lingering on his smooth back. I sighed with satisfaction, finally able to touch my Xie Xinyuan in this lifetime. It is enough for me.

Xie Xinyuan seemed to feel something. He first let out a muffled groan, then arched his back and started writhing, as if trying to turn over. I was somewhat frightened, but the alcohol gave me courage. I held onto him even tighter and shouted, "Xinyuan, I really like you..."

I don't know where Xie Xinyuan, a military doctor, got such strength from. He forcefully threw me to the other side of the bed, and the back of my head hit the bed board. As a result, my head became even more dizzy. I imagine my posture must have been quite embarrassing. I tried to crawl up, but the next second I found myself pressed down and unable to move.

"Qiao Yu, you're asking for death!"

A harsh and menacing remark echoed above my head. I shivered in fear, thinking to myself, Xie Xinyuan must be angry. I felt so sad, I didn't want Xie Xinyuan to be mad at me, so I hugged him tightly. I held him fiercely and said, "I'm sorry, I just like you too much. Can you please not be angry with me?"

"Too late!"

Xie Xinyuan continued, "My heart has turned cold. I know that our brotherhood cannot be realized. So, there's a saying that goes, 'Impulsiveness is the devil', and I was just too impulsive."

I closed my eyes, tears sliding down from the corners of my eyes. I wiped them forcefully with the back of my hand and choked out, "I'm sorry, do whatever you want."

My lips were suddenly blocked, and something slipped between them, vigorously stirring in my mouth. For a brief moment, my mind went blank, and then a tingling sensation spread throughout my body, as if being electrocuted. I let out a soft moan and wrapped my arms around the neck of the person in front of me, responding to him. He was like a wild beast gone mad, doing as he pleased on my body. I felt exhilarated, panting heavily, surrendering myself to him beneath...

I had a long dream. In the dream, I was lying on a rocking small boat, which was drifting with the waves and taking me towards an unknown shore. The sea water was splashing against my body, and every pore of mine was wide open. I had never felt this comfortable before. I was whispering softly, panting...

When I woke up, I felt like my bones were about to fall apart. I rolled over and beside me was a warm body. I hugged him tightly - could it be my Xie Xinyuan?

I nuzzled against his neck, taking a deep sniff, and then, I froze.

This is not Xie Xinyuan's taste.

I abruptly opened my swollen eyes and looked at the half-handsome face and slender neck in front of me. All the blood in my body turned cold.

Shen Jialin's hoarse voice echoed above my head, "Awake? It's time for us to settle the score."

I think my expression at this moment must be quite ugly. Apart from the fact that the person in front of me is Shen Jialin, it's also because my bottom is hurting. And the culprit behind all of this is none other than Shen Jialin.

I slowly moved back a foot, trembling in fear, and carefully lifted the blanket.

"Where are you going?" Shen Jialin's voice was icy cold as he reached out a large hand and pulled me back.

"I need to use the restroom," I heard myself say, my voice as hoarse as a screeching chicken.

Shen Jialin lowered his head, stared at me for a while, and then let go of me. "Go."

I scrambled out of bed and rushed into the bathroom, wearing a bathrobe.