"You know, sometimes, I quite envy you and Viviana." Janiya found him didn’t replied, then continued to speak to herself.

Nigel turned, looked at the woman opposite, and asked, "What do you envy us?"

"Although Viviana's family and her experience are similar to mine, but in her most difficult days, she had you accompany her and made her feel that at least her world wasn’t so dark." As Janiya thinking of this, a bitter smile broke on her lips.

Unlike her, she had to shoulder all the darkness alone. All the sources of her inner pain, she couldn’t find a second person to tell.

"You don't know. Sometimes the person you envy, may also envy you. It’s true to live your life well." Nigel leaned on the pillow and said this.

Janiya looked at him and whispered, "Are you comforting me?"

"If you take this as a comfort, then it is." Nigel didn't deny what she said was right or wrong, just let herself feel it.

"Nigel, in your past life, do you have any obsessions that you think you must get this life?" Janiya asked him.

He sighed, eyes closed, then replied, "Of course there is."

"Since we’ve got that straight, I want to ask you, what is your obsession?"

"Not love." Nigel answered.

Janiya took a serious look at him, frowned at the man in front of her. Did he mean that his love with Viviana wasn't his obsession?

"What is your obsession?"

After a long time, Nigel saw that Janiya didn’t answer him, so he opened his eyes and asked her.

She looked at Nigel, her eyes met him. At this moment, she felt that they were so close, as if they both had the same purpose, they could relate to each other.

But reality was an antidote that made her have to face it. She twitched a smile, looking at the man in front of her, and said, "My obsession is to find a way to leave you. I want to live my own life."

What she said this time was real, without any deception.

Nigel's smile gradually faded away. He looked at Janiya and asked seriously, "To let you stay with me. Is it really a pain for you?"

She stopped smiling, for the first time, she had a feeling of sadness spreading in her heart. Finally she said, "Yes, it’s painful." Still, her answer didn’t let Negil disappointed.

"How, I suddenly want you to live anguishedly ever after. I am happy to see that you are unhappy."

Nigel’s words were half true and half hypocritical. But he couldn't let her know the sincere part.

"Get out! Nigel! You wish! Do you know what your father said to me today?" She knew that Nigel would never say anything nice. His occasional tenderness to her was just acting.

"What?" Nigel asked automatically.

"He said he’ll give me a sum of money, and I have to stay away from you. So it’s impossible for you to see me living in pain. I tell you that don't aggravate me, if you send me over the edge, you have to find another actor as qualified as me." Janiya said proudly.

Nigel laughed and said, "Even if you run to the edge of the earth, I will catch you."

"By the way, I had great fun playing in the playground today."

Nigel's sudden remark about this playground trip surprised Janiya. She thought that those rich man like him disdain going to the playground. Unlike her, she never regarded herself as a rich girl for a day. Therefore, when her father's company went bankrupt, she didn't get upset too much. Money wasn’t so important to her.

"So, why did you have a big fight with your father today?"

Nigel's face changed, Janiya waved her hand quickly and said, "It’s fine if you don't want to say." After all, they now were in the same room. What if he got angry and hurt her? It is impossible for her to beat an adult man.

Unexpectedly, she thought that he might say nothing, but he spoke up, "Because he never loved me, nor did he love my mother."

The topic was too weighty, Janiya didn't know how to answer. She thought about it, then pat his shoulder gently as comfort.

"My father has two sons, my mother married her through a formal wedding. As for the so-called eldest brother is just an illegitimate child, but just such a bastard always weigh more than me. Do you know that the company equity in my hands now will finally be distributed to him. Everything I do now is just to pave the way for him."

This might be the first candid chat between them. It turned out they both had unknown sufferings.

"Every father in the world loves his kids. Maybe he also has his share of problems." She thought for a long time, but only came up with this, because she didn’t know how to comfort him either.

Nigel shook his head and said, "You won't understand. The situation in our family is more complicated than anyone else."

Of course Janiya didn’t understand the situation in the Nans family. Sometimes, she even didn’t understand her own. She couldn’t figure it out until now. Her father always obeyed the law and never dared to do things that go beyond. However, her family broken up overnight, and her father was forced to commit suicide. This was a pain she would never understand, even her mother had never told her.

She hated herself for being incompetent at that time, also her mother's weakness.

Nigel turned over, looking at her dull look, and said, "You can rest assured that I will let you go when things are over." After this, he laid on the pillow, eyes closed, stopped saying a word and fell asleep.

She looked at Nigel's lonely figure, her heart sank slightly. She was instructed by Nathan, but to the end, Nigel never offended her. From the beginning, it was she who had provoked Nigel first.

At this moment, her heart softened a bit. The man in front of her made her shook to the core, she couldn’t do it , and even felt a little guilty. What should she do ... what on earth should she do ...