Sean was in a complete daze, and he had thought that he was going to die at the most painful time. He could not even cry out of pain, and his forehead was covered with a fine layer of cold sweat.

Actually William didn't feel well in the sex as the dry and narrow canal also made him pain. But he just wanted to vent his anger, and he had to make Sean feel more uncomfortable.

"Do you admit your fault?"

At the end, Sean heard such a sentence, and he slowly turned over and curled up with his pointed chin resting on his knee. He did not speak, feeling the only remaining heat in his body had evaporated with William's movements, with not an iota left.

What did I do wrong? Sean's eyes were as dim as the dark night, with nothing reflected in them.

"Speak." William frowned and bent down to turn around his face. He had already given Sean a step to avoid embarrassment, but he just ignored him completely. William continued,"You want more? Lying there to wait for me to fuck you again?"

Sean's face turned around with William's hand. His eyes were difficult to focus. Sean's pupils were big and black, but the water-like purity and affection inside just disappeared. They reflected William's fingure, with overwhelming despair an grief.

William's heart suddenly tightened and ached. He held up his hand to touch Sean's eyelids. He wanted to confirm that the despair in his eyes was just his illusion.

But when he raised his hand, Sean shivered. He curled up tighter, with bright red finger prints on his half face. The sudden action made Sean cough up, the pale face showed extreme pain, and then out of a strong choke, he coughed out dark red blood.

William's color changed at once, with his pupils suddenly contracting. He bent down to embrace Sean, and even his fingers were trembling,"what's wrong? What's wrong? Let me see... Let me see..."

Sean trembled more and more fiercely. The blood trickled down his lips when he opened his mouth. He clenched William with great strength,"I'm cold."

William hurriedly wrapped Sean up with the sheet. He turned over Sean and held him into his arms, and then touched more cold and sticky liquid from Sean's lolwer body. William lost in complete panic then. The lacerated wound on the intestinal tract still did not stop bleeding.

"It's okay... It's okay. We'll go to the hospital right now. It's all right." William said, not knowing he was comforting others or himself. While it was really rare to hear his panic-stricken tone as he was always masterful, calm and elegant when facing life and death.

"I'm not going to the hospital." Sean said gently. He was still conscious, so he repeated again then, "I won't go to the hospital."

William made a concession, so he quickly searched the address book and dialed a number,"Carl? Take the medicine kit and come to my house!"

Hanging up the phone, William held Sean more tightly in his arms,"It'll be okay. Carl will come over soon. Are you tired? Sleep for a while in my arms."

"William Jiang." Sean's voice was hoarse, not so clear, which had a sense of peace, with no complaint, or love.

Not waiting for William's response, Sean chuckled softly,"I want to attend high school again if I could. At that time William was so great. Everyone liked him, but he only liked me. He was bad-tempered, he was impatient of everything, but he was willing to accompany me patiently. If someone was impolite to me, he would teach him a lesson about how to speak. Whenever he put on performance or accepted the prize on the stage, his eyes would always look for me."

Sean smiled, with his face covered with tears. But he seemed to be unaware of that, still smiling with nostalgia: "William Jiang said he liked me when I was 17 and then I was with him, as I believed he would cherish me. When I was 19, I abadoned my family and my future and went with him, feeling that as long as I was with him, I would not be afraid of any hardship. When I was 23, my parents had a car accident when they came to Beijing to look for me. I had nothing but him. At that time, I thought that, as long as he didn't leave me, I would be with him forever no matter what happened."

Sean's tears poured more and more seriously. His eyes glazed over, trying not to burst out,"He treated me so well. He strived to make money, and that proud and rebellious boy also started to learn how to fawn on others on the table, how to toast and how to open the door for the boss... I knew he made money for me, or he wouldn't break one of his biggest clients's hand just because he had molested me. He lost the client, and almost got detained for several days."

Talking about it, Sean smiled a little bit gentlym and sourly with his irrepressible affection.

"But I don't know how people change." Sean coughed again, and his mouth hurt badly with a bloody taste.

"He didn't go home then, he rarely called me then, and sometimes he came home at night after drinking, his clothes smelled of perfume. I didn't know what to do. I acted even more carefully than a girl. I kept wondering why he didn't like me anymore. Was it because that I was not as good-looking as I used to be, I didn't cook well as the outside restaurant chefs, or just because I couldn't satisfy him in bed as other young girls and boys."

"I should have watched GV for two years so consciously like a student in high school just to please him, wasn't that funny? But in the end, it didn't help at all. I guessed that I couln't learn to keep him by my body forever. It was rare for me not crying or begging him to stop during the sex, so how could I please him with other ways?"

"I'm so useless, but he's still afraid that I'll hook up others outside... How is that possible? It's enough for me to stumble over him in this life, so how could I be so foolish to hook up another?"

William held Sean tightly in his arms, saying in a painful tone,"Stop... Stop... I was wrong, good boy, It was all my fault." William said in a palpably choked voice. His heart ached as if it was going to stop beating as someone was clenching it.

Sean's slender brows furrowed. He whimpered in a low voice as if he didn't hear William's words, "when I was in school, I didn't dare not learn to ride a bike as my leg would hurt for a long time with a little bruise... At high school, the teacher always hit us on the palms when we couldn't recite the text, and I was the only one who recited the text completely every time. Because I was afraid of being beaten, even if sometimes the teacher just hit us so lightly as most people couldn't finish it... He knew... He knew that I was most afraid of pain, but he could still slap me on the face... From that moment, I started to know that, he didn't love me anymore."

"I was wrong... Honey. I love you most... Stop it, please. After you recover, you slap me back... I was wrong. I was wrong." William felt more and more panicky, and his heart was pounding with fear and pain. He could clearly feel that things would never go back again since he had said these words.

Sean listened to William's words quietly, not reacting as if he did not hear anything,"For others, it might just be a relationship which they could give up easily, while for me, it was my 14 years of love, my only anchor, all the happiness of my life and all my unforgettable pain."

Sean tugged at William's chest, looking up into his deep eyes, smiling gently, "So I didn't leave after the first time you hit me, I didn't leave after you got drunk and calling me Elton in bed when you were fucking me, I didn't leave after you made merry with another boy in France, and I didn't leave after you raped me and suspected that I hooked up another man... But, William Jiang, without love, how long can I be with you then?"

William trembled. The things had got out of control before he realized.